For all times I have strived to reach what I had set in mind, there has always been something, unknowingly holding me back. Those day’s are long over, as the walls that had once entrapped me so, have crumbled to the grown, fallen from heights greater than I have ever reached, crashing at a force much stronger than when the crashing period took place for me.

Before the fall, I was weak, vulnerable, yet my soul still pressed on. These days have long past now, and now, at this very moment, I find myself only days away from surpassing the threshold I am currently fighting with right now. A force so strong, it seeks to pin me to the concrete of all things. This is no gravity, for gravity acts in a way even we still are ignorant to. This force is stronger, a force to change an entire world, a force that can determine life or death, a force that can either guide or misguide me.

My time has now run out in this state, as I must return to where gravity flows free, and time slows down. For the fight in me has grown stronger, but this light has grown weaker during this time of the new Dawn. I know as poisons spill and ooze from my skin, that I have a way’s to go. For dimmer nights, and brighter later Dawns await my presence, where I must fight this threshold face to face. For he is of a dangerous time, running alongside me, yet affecting my lines. To tread alone, is the true way of this journey, and I know this is the only way to obtain what I truly seek. I know they are there awaiting answers, as am I. And as for them applies to you, I am coming for you. But you must stay awake, you must keep your eyes open, for I am never truly seen. My light has dimmed.

“They all said I lost hope..”

Lately I have been drifting off into an odd state, a dark state, a state that has been so hard to shake I would have thought it had originated from you. Endless hours may pass as I lie restless within this state, carrying a mind that is not my own, yet thoughts that feel so familiar. Bestowing images of wandering and various forms of architect, I still remain puzzled as to how all of this came to be. It would seem that, unknowingly, I have been brought back down to a level that is not of the state I seek to reach. My fingers may be quick to point, with my mouth too quick to gasp demands to those who are much more powerful than I am.

Before my mind could even begin to process what was going on, my heart and body gradually began to notify me of such practices. A distribution of infinite proportions, a plan conjured up by pure darkness, and an outcome convenient enough to stall just long enough to complete the task, has been at hand. I was tricked along with the rest, and captured, pinned to their world as they hide within the shadows. Even now, as my eyes slowly begin to open during this mourning period, I still find myself being caught within their shackles during the hours where my I tread weakest.

A silent war has very well begun, and while the war I may be fighting has nothing to do with them, I now realize I mustn’t be held captive any longer to their trickery. I know you, among very few, were free from such dark doings. You held a pure soul that was untouched, untainted from those who lurk within the shadows. To extract what has already been done to me, completion of the remaining days of this new evolution must take place. Either I will break under their control, or I will form onto higher ground, I still remain ignorant to the final outcome.

They still breathe in the dark, and so do I.

Twisting and turning, shifting and spinning, while drifting in and out of sleep was nothing new to me. From strange cells running through my veins, to new visions and feelings that were not of my own, I knew that something was different.

As the sun had finally arisen and begun the Mourning period, I knew that the time to find this new path, this path that had been waiting to be discovered, the path that would lead me into the core of the new Advent, was intimate. As stated many times during the exit of the old era, I have been stuck in cycles for much too long, for something darker has been at pay, keeping me at it’s strings, entrapping me within it’s wings. It’s told lies of false futures, and it’s shown eyes of non-existing souls.

For so long, I have been told nothing but lies, for so long I have known nothing other than betrayal. After coming to this realization, I knew deep within my heart that there could be no other space within this journey aside from the fourth, the remainders, unfortunately, would only be seen as tools, as stepping stools; though cherished grately, they are to be there for reaching greater heights, and truly nothing more. It is perhaps better this way, as in the past, sharing this path with others led to nothing but loss, on both sides, I am told going about this route once again will only disturb the natural order of things.

The awakening was solemn, my soul has had many before, but you must realize, this is was the first of the new Advent. With it all still coming together, all still in progress, I am left wondering how exactly it will all end. What I do know now, is that nothing will ever be the same for me again. For now, in several ways, my lower self can move through and beyond the strange lands he still resides in, the strange lands where love once stood, the strange lands where death was born.

I was told that my time is soon to come to an end. I have little doubt in this, but as of now, it is not in my right to discover when that time is, for many other things are left to be discovered before then. The new path has finally presented itself to me, and I am ready to embark on the secrets it holds..

It was all inevitable, to not see it coming was merely foolishness on my part. Those around have now begun to shift and spin in a very odd and eerie fashion. As soon, for what will feel like forever, they will be completely removed from my path. With it all of course beyond my control, and up to some greater, higher force, what I have once knew, what I have once cherished, what I have even hated is now finally being faded into the sunrises ray’s at the new Dawn fully sets in.

While I know soon, the Twilight will return for its first time in this new Advent, I also know that the trials and tribulations of this Morning period have not yet reached it’s peak.  Accepting the lonely state of this current path, I now have, what feels to be a clearer state of mind, even though my heart may feel otherwise. Long ago, as the only one, you helped me find the light, the light I still am now coming to learn more and more about everyday, a light that holds a greater truth, something much larger, something much brighter and grander beyond the current cycles that I have come to know now.

While new cycles will soon be established as this brand new transition period sets off, this time, it will not be in vain, for if it is, I oath for my failures to cost me nothing less than my very own life and all that I am. A new force has now begun to grow inside of me, something that now seeks attention, nourishment, and more. This being will continue and exceed these new cycles, but until then, I am not worthy of it.

The forces which guide me on a daily basis continuously praise me for coming such a long ways, despite the failures I’ve made, the promises I’ve broken, the homes that I’ve left, and the time-lines I have crumbled. At this very moment, I sense a feeling from afar, from some large open plains calling me out. They speak of remembrance and clarity, and new life.

It is now that I seek to the guidance of the higher energies and powers to guide me for what will be perhaps the most crucial period since the first departure. I will grow tired, I will grow hungry, I may even grow weak, but I will not let it all go down into some darkened sea once again.