With the dark void now spinning, rapidly, and absorbing my current strange states at a quick and violent pace, an odd new feeling has begun to wash over me. The feeling and longing of you, seems to have it’s way once again, overtaking certain voids, and filling them with grief a grief with such force, it shall open a window to what I seek. For you, like me, are an insignificant being, compared to the entirety of the cosmos. But you are also a key, you have always been a key, an unfading key, an ever-lasting key, but however, a key that has only been made for a finite number of locks. But this lock, attached to some mysterious window beyond my mortal site, comes with a price, a price to fade and diminish and a rapid pace, yet to gain the power and wisdom any living being could ever dream of, at a rapid pace. However for all of this, I am not yet ready, but more ready than before as this voids swallows hole of these shackles that have kept me bound to some strange darkness for so long. Soon, as fate once told, the heaviness will in fact swallow hole all of what I know, and all that I am. But this cannot happen yet, it shall not happen yet. For brighter lights, and darker corners await in that strange land of odd architect. But now with this crease open, time ticks at an un-settling pace, at a dangerous pace, it is now my goal to keep up, and manipulate it, until once that is in need of completion, is finished.
Category Archives: The Black Hole
A Path To Start, A Life to Leave
The time of the end of the old era has awhile since ended. The souls that had in which grasped to me then, are now gone, invisible to me, living out new paths, in a new Advent. Some of these souls, were the ones I trusted, some in which were the ones I hated, to the very core. But whether or not these feelings still burn from within is now irrelevant, for what is not destroying me is nothing more than my own fate, and the darkness that has in which stalked me since the beginning of this journey. Despite knowing this, I still do not fear, for the greater powers still shall not allow to to go. For from this black hole that is now to be birthed, comes a new path that must be carved, a path that has been long since overdue. It was you who had in which trusted me to carry out such a path, but with you now vanished, spun away along with the chaos and debris, it is up to me to grab hold of and walk the trail that has long since been carved, awaiting a new wayfarer to take it’s place. For after this road is taken, there will be no going back. And while cold and empty stations, on hardened concrete platforms will still haunt me and slowly destroy me, I know I must continue this path and finish it, if not for me at least, then for you. Those who have bestowed such poison upon me must now be left behind, once and for all. Much like most deaths, this process will be a slow one, but with time now speeding up once again as my darkest hour of the Evening grows near, I know it will all be over soon.
The Black Hole
When I let ll of them go, it was at a great will in which I carried out the action. However, it seemed fate played a big role into it all. For the departure, that took place shortly before the exile, was of some quiet and yet deadly fate, destined to be carried out. It was only after, that I had in fact noticed that I saw the future. I won’t forget that night, sprawled out upon some hard wooden floors, with an air so cold, one would have thought that death itself had crept through the windows. Put perhaps that’s what it was in the end, death. For at that time the 2nd sleep had begun to take place, and now, I seem to curse that it had. For from those wooden floors, and chilled air cause me to see the images in which I prayed I would never see, but in the end, it was inevitable. You warmed me then, covered in a deep blanket of snow, your heart gave me warmth, but that was then. This was before the exile.
For now the darkness is re-occurring, and though my soul yearns for the light, it cannot grasp it without my heart. It seems at this time, there are two fates fighting against each-other. Many battles take place, day by day, week by week. One day one fate wins, the other day one looses, it is a never ending war. My knowledge of all this is merely a spec compared to what the greater ones know, however I oath-ed to become a vessel for the balance, and perhaps that’s how I lost you. But now, with this darker aura beginning to settle in, these times begin to grow darker once again. For now the 3rd sleep has long since concluded and many questions are in need of answers. This darker world I have feared for years, however I hope it to provide the closure I seek, for much has left to be done, before this road ends.