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For some reason, my failures and mistakes never seem to cost me my life. However, this time around, I was punished more strictly than I have ever been punished before. Exiled from the mysterious land I was, and now thrown into this strange land, where times seems to tick at an unnoticeable pace.  In this land, at this time, I lie here in a daze, any second ready to rise. My future is at a steak it has never reached before. I worry now, knowing deep down inside if one curtail path is missed, it can alter the time that lies ahead. Though these sharp flashbacks of my failures still stab my mind, and my hearts longings, still growing stronger everyday. I know this time around that time must not be waisted. For now a second chance I’ve been given, to walk another lonely path, to grow as I was once meant, to resurrect.

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The moment I accepted my own defeat, it felt like a huge burden, that I’ve carried for years, was lifted off my back. However, the thoughts of my failures, and the constant reminding of my foolish mistakes haunted me at every waking hour, and still do until this day. Accepting this defeat was such a bittersweet feeling, but at the same time it was quite painful, considering how close I once was too victory. The day in which I finally fully accepted my defeat, was the day in which I knew and heard the evil that had been lurking behind me throughout what felt like endless days, within the lands of the Plains. This mysterious evil, in this mysterious place, calling out my name in mockery, and bestowing some trecherous plauges  upon me. 

This evil, and all of it’s strange power casted me out of those lands in which I once dwelled. Leaving me here, in this mysterious place, in which reminds me of life itself before the Cavern Walls. This evil cannot be left un-banished. Though my strengths have been bested, and my time has run out, I begin a shorter path now, to once again reach this evil, reach this mysterious place again, and accomplish and obtain what I have been destined to obtain once again. But now, a birthing I have missed is now beginning. A self of me that has been waiting to arise since the day this journey has begun. A healing that has been put off for much too long. In a way, a new life awaits.

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Fate comes silently, like a crook in the night. However, I feel this tie around fate came during the day, perhaps at the peak of the Afternoon. But I, still indulged within my deep sleep, had failed to realize this.  Shortly after the crashing occurred, not only was I hanging onto a dream, but also hanging onto false hope, blind from what I had missed. To make things worse, I continued to strive within the mess even after the countless oppurtunities for resurrection I was given. This was in which, one thing that hurt me the most.

Being the striver I am, even the brightest glare of failure never really seems to knock me off guard. It is not until I am fully on my knees, hopeless that I admit my defeat, and I assume things will always remain this way. Shortly after the departure, a path was open, a path to success and the opportunity to win the war was at hand. However, still dazed from the Caverns wrath, and weak minded, I lost this opportunity.

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For one to simply say I was a fool to begin with to pick such dangerous battles, I would have to strongly disagree. For instilled within my mind is the law of Experience & Growth. Since the departure of the Plains up until The Crashing point, the battle was in my favor, so it seemed. However, even during my brightest days within these mysterious lands, I had still felt some important period was missing from this longly prophesied. Though the vision only bestowed how these major events would occur, it did not give much detail, in most cases however, exactly when these major events would occur.

Leading up until this point, I have finally came to a conclusion as to why these Islander paths keep re-occurring within this chaotic timeline of old, that is the old era.

When the angels had first made their arrival and settled onto the new land, a place I would name, until further settling points “New Reedsport”,  I could almost foresee the future, much like I was able to do within the the lands of the Plains. However, at this exact moment, when the angels began to settle, and the snow began to fall. I realized I had been missing apart of this timeline, and this is when the crashing point occurred..

        -These Spies that spy me so, have now been identified.