It came quicker than I had originally anticipated, and was nothing like I had ever imagined. To say my weaknesses, all of my weaknesses, were revealed at that very moment, would be an understatement. For during that moment, I saw all that I was, and all that I had been – right in front of my eyes. The exile had more of an effect on me than I had originally knew. Time and time now, the thoughts that flood my mind in another life through tightly shut eyes displayed how it has all affected me, and how it continues to do so up until this very moment. Some would say I was betrayed, some would say I was curse, I am to believe it was all of the strange timeline which I had tread thinly on, however, the back of my mind tells me it was of my own faults and weaknesses that had led to the exile.
But despite this, The Climb still stood, and the decision to continue on further towards the next set-out, or to remain unprepared and unworthy had to be made. For during that time, I knew I had been poisoned, and poisoned greatly. All this time, I had been so weak, but had not known why. My heart had fled me, my strength, my motivation, my thoughts, all of it, and I had not known why. Still yes, the poison freely flows throughout my veins and my bloodstream, infiltrated any vital organs it can attach it’s essence too. But beginning now, it is being extracted, slowly, but effectively. For over 3 years of poison has been exposed within me, this only leaves much fighting left to be done till it is completely gone.
I know time is running more thin than ever, for these beautiful new Dawns and Daybreaks are growing weaker by the day, as the strengthened forces of the twilight await their turn to shine once again. With this in mind, I know that time cannot be wasted any longer. For it was time I underestimated before, and that I shall never underestimate again. His life grows shorter by the day, heart growing weaker by the nights, in due time he will meet his end, but may that time come, I pray I will be of greater strength and higher heights to take on his legacy.
There was a time I was lost…But where am I now?
My sense of direction has been changed ever since the exile. I knew eventually, if I were to remain alive, time would shift, and so would I. It was inevitable. You seemingly faded into nothingness, while I kept shifting along with the speeding times, leaping into holes and spaces that have taken me to a new place where I must choose my direction, where I must discover all that I had been searching for this entire time. These voices tell me that the planet has begun to spin at a strange speed, for guidings and movements have now begun to take place and greater truths are being revealed.
Still stuck in the longingness for you, my heart remains weak, but my soul has begun to grow stronger, stronger than it has ever been before. The position I must reach are of some greater heights; they are far from reach but I know now, I am more than capable than ever of reaching them. My openness for the fourth has recently come about, but deceiving traits, and tricks have been played upon me that continuously push me back a step.
Those who move in the shadows are working quicker than they ever have before, wars are brewing, and time are changing and soon, all that remains here will be shattered. It was inevitable that during this new era, we would all go our separate ways, never to speak of the chaotic past again. For I knew this, but never considered truly acknowledging it. For out of some strange force, I saw the future, only for my sight to be closed off after the exile took place.
These wars will soon hit my path, and the fighting will begin again. With that said I have now begun a period of concealment unlike any other. The growth must be substantial, for the days remaining after these rely on it. I am only days away now from my set out into this place of infinite spaces. It is not fear that grows within me now, but a strange feeling that reckons an era of change, like a infant departing the mother womb. We’ve all fought wars once together, we’ve even fought many against each other. But despite this, they will still remain my enemies of the past, yet some of my souls closest contacts. I shall always look upon them from the shadows, much like the higher ones look upon us.
For during this time, I have begun to go, but I have not strayed too far. I am always near, but not always in sight, it is now that this must take place. There is no going back from here. The newer path awaits.
I am now left to fight something else..
For all times I have strived to reach what I had set in mind, there has always been something, unknowingly holding me back. Those day’s are long over, as the walls that had once entrapped me so, have crumbled to the grown, fallen from heights greater than I have ever reached, crashing at a force much stronger than when the crashing period took place for me.
Before the fall, I was weak, vulnerable, yet my soul still pressed on. These days have long past now, and now, at this very moment, I find myself only days away from surpassing the threshold I am currently fighting with right now. A force so strong, it seeks to pin me to the concrete of all things. This is no gravity, for gravity acts in a way even we still are ignorant to. This force is stronger, a force to change an entire world, a force that can determine life or death, a force that can either guide or misguide me.
My time has now run out in this state, as I must return to where gravity flows free, and time slows down. For the fight in me has grown stronger, but this light has grown weaker during this time of the new Dawn. I know as poisons spill and ooze from my skin, that I have a way’s to go. For dimmer nights, and brighter later Dawns await my presence, where I must fight this threshold face to face. For he is of a dangerous time, running alongside me, yet affecting my lines. To tread alone, is the true way of this journey, and I know this is the only way to obtain what I truly seek. I know they are there awaiting answers, as am I. And as for them applies to you, I am coming for you. But you must stay awake, you must keep your eyes open, for I am never truly seen. My light has dimmed.
“They all said I lost hope..”
I knew sooner or later, time would twist and turn once again, forcing me to return to this state like before. Time is running out for me, as the final days of this stage have begun to take place. The threshold in which I must exceed is now in grasp, but in order to ascend to where I need to be, greater steaks must be taken. For poison has once infiltrated my veins, making it a slow shifting process for me to begin stirring within my own strength once again. Unlike the rest, you were the only one who saw right through this returning state. You knew what hid behind the coverings, and all it’s intentions. For because of your sight, it was able to become something it thought was never possible.
I can sense within the atmosphere that these days have begun to grow cooler, indicating my time here will soon be up once again. The landscapes I must begin to know are of some odd and infinite spaces, a place like no other, with dangerous waves lurking around every corner. Those who I am alike realize the wars that are soon to take place, and the shifting of times once again. Though this mourning period seems to only just begun, a dangerous time lies ahead, and it is for this now that I prepare for.
Though the fourth may be of some old and odd dimensions, or perhaps non existent at all, neither change the fact of what must begin to take place today. The inconvenience will be a great one as this will be my final farewell to those who have changed, and to those who have casted me out. Lack of comradery, and closeness comes at an advantage here; for I truly have nothing to lose, yet much to gain from this. I knew this new path would be a lonely one, especially since your vanishing, but perhaps much like you, this entire time, I needed to do the same.
I am no longer scared.
Once I had begun to gradually flush out such poisons, it was clear to me that it had all been affecting something much grander on the everlasting scale. The darkness that has followed me into this land will soon make its first strike. This time of evolution is crucial. For a dimmer flow from within has been sparked, and a world has been tapped into that I had never imagined before. Perhaps this was the plan of the exile all along, to force me to become aware of the reality that will truly answer all the questions that had motivated me to set out on this tiring journey to begin with.
Often times I must remind myself that this must not all be in vain, and that you will never return. I realize this new light that I had only caught a glimpse of, holds the answers of the final frontiers, and can very well cast out the darkness that I have been treading from for so long. The multiple worlds that surround me now both above and below me will all be discovered and explored as soon as the new set-out takes place. Darker forces have begun to lurk even more as war is truly imminent. A fight of the new era is soon to take place, a fight that will define the tone for this new journey as a whole, and even now I am preparing myself.
It is safe to say that all fears I have once had, have been diminished down to almost nothing. Of course, there are those remnants of time within my mind that seek to throw me into eternal anguish, but even now I seem to be able to fight them without much harm done. The power that I seek now has been in-front of me all this time, and while I must continue to build this new vessel that will allow me to tap into this power, I do feel I am closer than ever to truly learning more about this new Advent and what is seeks to bring.
Time has shifted into the unknown.
Lately I have been drifting off into an odd state, a dark state, a state that has been so hard to shake I would have thought it had originated from you. Endless hours may pass as I lie restless within this state, carrying a mind that is not my own, yet thoughts that feel so familiar. Bestowing images of wandering and various forms of architect, I still remain puzzled as to how all of this came to be. It would seem that, unknowingly, I have been brought back down to a level that is not of the state I seek to reach. My fingers may be quick to point, with my mouth too quick to gasp demands to those who are much more powerful than I am.
Before my mind could even begin to process what was going on, my heart and body gradually began to notify me of such practices. A distribution of infinite proportions, a plan conjured up by pure darkness, and an outcome convenient enough to stall just long enough to complete the task, has been at hand. I was tricked along with the rest, and captured, pinned to their world as they hide within the shadows. Even now, as my eyes slowly begin to open during this mourning period, I still find myself being caught within their shackles during the hours where my I tread weakest.
A silent war has very well begun, and while the war I may be fighting has nothing to do with them, I now realize I mustn’t be held captive any longer to their trickery. I know you, among very few, were free from such dark doings. You held a pure soul that was untouched, untainted from those who lurk within the shadows. To extract what has already been done to me, completion of the remaining days of this new evolution must take place. Either I will break under their control, or I will form onto higher ground, I still remain ignorant to the final outcome.
They still breathe in the dark, and so do I.
Twisting and turning, shifting and spinning, while drifting in and out of sleep was nothing new to me. From strange cells running through my veins, to new visions and feelings that were not of my own, I knew that something was different.
As the sun had finally arisen and begun the Mourning period, I knew that the time to find this new path, this path that had been waiting to be discovered, the path that would lead me into the core of the new Advent, was intimate. As stated many times during the exit of the old era, I have been stuck in cycles for much too long, for something darker has been at pay, keeping me at it’s strings, entrapping me within it’s wings. It’s told lies of false futures, and it’s shown eyes of non-existing souls.
For so long, I have been told nothing but lies, for so long I have known nothing other than betrayal. After coming to this realization, I knew deep within my heart that there could be no other space within this journey aside from the fourth, the remainders, unfortunately, would only be seen as tools, as stepping stools; though cherished grately, they are to be there for reaching greater heights, and truly nothing more. It is perhaps better this way, as in the past, sharing this path with others led to nothing but loss, on both sides, I am told going about this route once again will only disturb the natural order of things.
The awakening was solemn, my soul has had many before, but you must realize, this is was the first of the new Advent. With it all still coming together, all still in progress, I am left wondering how exactly it will all end. What I do know now, is that nothing will ever be the same for me again. For now, in several ways, my lower self can move through and beyond the strange lands he still resides in, the strange lands where love once stood, the strange lands where death was born.
I was told that my time is soon to come to an end. I have little doubt in this, but as of now, it is not in my right to discover when that time is, for many other things are left to be discovered before then. The new path has finally presented itself to me, and I am ready to embark on the secrets it holds..