There are truly no words left to be said, but all all in all since this period had first begun much has happened. It has now become very clear to me that the foundations in which all had stood on that I had constructed has went through a gradual fading ever since the exile, up until the Dawn of this new Advent. With no foundations remaining, I was caught in a tail spin, a loss of direction, and no strength to build upon what I had set out to do in the first place. Though my memory is slowly beginning to return, I still truly believe I know how all of this will end.
He has now changed, and is no longer the same being he once was. Though some aspects remain the same, the intentions are all in all different. We have seen far past the cycles that we had once been caught in. And while some of these cycles we still hold very dearly to, it is no longer up to us to keep them around, they have begun to vanish along with the days and mornings we have come to know so well as a whole.
We know that eventually, all of this will be behind us, truly erase within time that does not exist within this realm. Time and time again, I have fought to uphold some strange and mysterious cycles, for us both, but this ceased our growth. Shadows now look to us with a hostile eye as we make our way into a new time within this new Advent, the Dawn of the Twilight era. Thought these mournings still remain new to him, still yet to truly settle in, his time is quickly running out.
The bars that had once entangled me down, keeping trapped have now been lifted, due to some mysterious force. I know he no longer speaks lies, and he now only searches for the truth and nothing but it. We will settle for no less. The fadings we have begun to see today will only gradually continue as we move forward. The 5th sleep is soon to arrive and a new direction will be revealed. For in the meantime, the setouts in which have been awaiting me for so long are now ready to commence, the time has not been better, and with these locks and chains vanishing along with the days, the time has never been better.
The overwhelming warmth of these days have gradually begun fading and the nights have grown much colder. This is all still very new, and foreign to me, but somehow, some way, things just feel right. I know he is wandering within a strange space, suffering deep inside from all that has taken place. And while in a way, I am lost, I cannot help to wonder what a being who is as hurting as him could possibly hold that could benefit me.
The air has become breathable here, through you I can feel the wounds that you carry as you compare your scars to the ones which lie on others. Only, you remain ignorant to the fact that this is not necessary by any means for you have always flown within them, for their scars are truly not unknown to you. I know that the hours have shifted in their favor. The darker ones have now begun to make their ways out of their hidings, and are now plotting some dangerous actions while both you and I remain vulnerable.
The Twilight has always been a time of strife for you, so it seems. For now you know the inevitable wars are set to take place once again, but this time you are ready to fight, and I shall be your weapon and armor. Though while we still may remain far apart by the looks, in reality we have never been closer, and even closer we will become. You shall not die there, not yet, not now.
We were never truly bounded here like many have once originally thought. There is a way that I know that exceeds far beyond what my heart has spoken to me, a way that I know that processes much faster, much quicker than that of the cells within my brain. I dream of waves in deep pools that breathe life into my very soul. There has been a different way which has been apart of me since I could remember. He seems to struggle, he tends to fight, and he is growing weaker. For now the waves that encompass us all are beginning to swallow up all that we know, flashing to us all that we’ve once knew.
It is at this time that actions must be taken for once I set out to save him, a Vanishing will take place. I know truly, we both will never exist the same every again. For the heights we both know as of now will only grow larger, and the sleepless night he knows now will only grow longer. With the brightest of the Dawn now behind us, we begin to take shelter as the coming of the Twilight and it’s wars are only a trail away.
With such tides engulfing us all, I can only pray that after these storms come to an end, a brighter future lies ahead.
It came quicker than I had originally anticipated, and was nothing like I had ever imagined. To say my weaknesses, all of my weaknesses, were revealed at that very moment, would be an understatement. For during that moment, I saw all that I was, and all that I had been – right in front of my eyes. The exile had more of an effect on me than I had originally knew. Time and time now, the thoughts that flood my mind in another life through tightly shut eyes displayed how it has all affected me, and how it continues to do so up until this very moment. Some would say I was betrayed, some would say I was curse, I am to believe it was all of the strange timeline which I had tread thinly on, however, the back of my mind tells me it was of my own faults and weaknesses that had led to the exile.
But despite this, The Climb still stood, and the decision to continue on further towards the next set-out, or to remain unprepared and unworthy had to be made. For during that time, I knew I had been poisoned, and poisoned greatly. All this time, I had been so weak, but had not known why. My heart had fled me, my strength, my motivation, my thoughts, all of it, and I had not known why. Still yes, the poison freely flows throughout my veins and my bloodstream, infiltrated any vital organs it can attach it’s essence too. But beginning now, it is being extracted, slowly, but effectively. For over 3 years of poison has been exposed within me, this only leaves much fighting left to be done till it is completely gone.
I know time is running more thin than ever, for these beautiful new Dawns and Daybreaks are growing weaker by the day, as the strengthened forces of the twilight await their turn to shine once again. With this in mind, I know that time cannot be wasted any longer. For it was time I underestimated before, and that I shall never underestimate again. His life grows shorter by the day, heart growing weaker by the nights, in due time he will meet his end, but may that time come, I pray I will be of greater strength and higher heights to take on his legacy.
There was a time I was lost…But where am I now?
My sense of direction has been changed ever since the exile. I knew eventually, if I were to remain alive, time would shift, and so would I. It was inevitable. You seemingly faded into nothingness, while I kept shifting along with the speeding times, leaping into holes and spaces that have taken me to a new place where I must choose my direction, where I must discover all that I had been searching for this entire time. These voices tell me that the planet has begun to spin at a strange speed, for guidings and movements have now begun to take place and greater truths are being revealed.
Still stuck in the longingness for you, my heart remains weak, but my soul has begun to grow stronger, stronger than it has ever been before. The position I must reach are of some greater heights; they are far from reach but I know now, I am more than capable than ever of reaching them. My openness for the fourth has recently come about, but deceiving traits, and tricks have been played upon me that continuously push me back a step.
Those who move in the shadows are working quicker than they ever have before, wars are brewing, and time are changing and soon, all that remains here will be shattered. It was inevitable that during this new era, we would all go our separate ways, never to speak of the chaotic past again. For I knew this, but never considered truly acknowledging it. For out of some strange force, I saw the future, only for my sight to be closed off after the exile took place.
These wars will soon hit my path, and the fighting will begin again. With that said I have now begun a period of concealment unlike any other. The growth must be substantial, for the days remaining after these rely on it. I am only days away now from my set out into this place of infinite spaces. It is not fear that grows within me now, but a strange feeling that reckons an era of change, like a infant departing the mother womb. We’ve all fought wars once together, we’ve even fought many against each other. But despite this, they will still remain my enemies of the past, yet some of my souls closest contacts. I shall always look upon them from the shadows, much like the higher ones look upon us.
For during this time, I have begun to go, but I have not strayed too far. I am always near, but not always in sight, it is now that this must take place. There is no going back from here. The newer path awaits.
I am now left to fight something else..
For all times I have strived to reach what I had set in mind, there has always been something, unknowingly holding me back. Those day’s are long over, as the walls that had once entrapped me so, have crumbled to the grown, fallen from heights greater than I have ever reached, crashing at a force much stronger than when the crashing period took place for me.
Before the fall, I was weak, vulnerable, yet my soul still pressed on. These days have long past now, and now, at this very moment, I find myself only days away from surpassing the threshold I am currently fighting with right now. A force so strong, it seeks to pin me to the concrete of all things. This is no gravity, for gravity acts in a way even we still are ignorant to. This force is stronger, a force to change an entire world, a force that can determine life or death, a force that can either guide or misguide me.
My time has now run out in this state, as I must return to where gravity flows free, and time slows down. For the fight in me has grown stronger, but this light has grown weaker during this time of the new Dawn. I know as poisons spill and ooze from my skin, that I have a way’s to go. For dimmer nights, and brighter later Dawns await my presence, where I must fight this threshold face to face. For he is of a dangerous time, running alongside me, yet affecting my lines. To tread alone, is the true way of this journey, and I know this is the only way to obtain what I truly seek. I know they are there awaiting answers, as am I. And as for them applies to you, I am coming for you. But you must stay awake, you must keep your eyes open, for I am never truly seen. My light has dimmed.
“They all said I lost hope..”
I knew sooner or later, time would twist and turn once again, forcing me to return to this state like before. Time is running out for me, as the final days of this stage have begun to take place. The threshold in which I must exceed is now in grasp, but in order to ascend to where I need to be, greater steaks must be taken. For poison has once infiltrated my veins, making it a slow shifting process for me to begin stirring within my own strength once again. Unlike the rest, you were the only one who saw right through this returning state. You knew what hid behind the coverings, and all it’s intentions. For because of your sight, it was able to become something it thought was never possible.
I can sense within the atmosphere that these days have begun to grow cooler, indicating my time here will soon be up once again. The landscapes I must begin to know are of some odd and infinite spaces, a place like no other, with dangerous waves lurking around every corner. Those who I am alike realize the wars that are soon to take place, and the shifting of times once again. Though this mourning period seems to only just begun, a dangerous time lies ahead, and it is for this now that I prepare for.
Though the fourth may be of some old and odd dimensions, or perhaps non existent at all, neither change the fact of what must begin to take place today. The inconvenience will be a great one as this will be my final farewell to those who have changed, and to those who have casted me out. Lack of comradery, and closeness comes at an advantage here; for I truly have nothing to lose, yet much to gain from this. I knew this new path would be a lonely one, especially since your vanishing, but perhaps much like you, this entire time, I needed to do the same.
I am no longer scared.